Is always a pleasant feeling… however, sometimes it can lead you feeling a bit blown away. I get that feeling a lot with all my memories of Florida and Disney… However, now that my vacation is over the memory is fresh in my mind… so the nostalgia is not as intense.
My nostalgia tonight is of a different time. I’m remembering Fall of 2010. Fall 2010- when Katy Perry’s Teenage Dream was the soundtrack to my life and I had found new exciting love. I also had started at a new school … a school which I dropped out of and never finished- but nonetheless the memories of that time are still there; and tonight I am longing for them.
It’s peaceful and reassuring to know that I am still with that new exciting love of 2 years past. Times of dealing with the most horrific heartbreak of my life and experiencing love again. Times were difficult- but still most exciting and I am longing for those feelings once more. Not of heartbreak - to experience how my boyfriend and I felt when we were turning 22 years old … getting to know each other, and experiencing love with each other for the first time…
I’m almost 24 now. Wow. Time flies.
I’m also longing for the first few months at Chick-fil-A; a job that I once thoroughly enjoyed - and remembering some pretty good friends throughout that journey. It hurts that those days have been gone for a long time now. It hurts even more because this was the time- Fall 2010- that would have marked my 2 year anniversary with a company I once respected and admired. Sucks how things have to change - sadly I was no longer happy where I once loved.
So where to go from here? Smile and remember the good times. Laugh through the tears - and be thankful I’ll always hold those memories dear to my heart.
Will I be writing a similar blog like this 2 years from now? Longing for the time of Fall 2012? Maybe I’ll be married - hopefully pursuing what I really want to do in school - and hopefully holding onto a decent job.
From all this I know - life is never boring- and I’ll always have something to write about.
